This month we are working with the Greek Goddess Eurynome.
She began as a Creation Goddess, separating the air from the water and dancing the world into existence. She later was demoted to a lesser Deity, being thrown from Mt. Olympus into the river that circled the world.
In one myth she was depicted as having a fish tale i.e. Sea Goddess.
(or better yet - Mermaid! *squeeeee!!!!*)
I had a feeling that this would be an interesting month and three days in, I am not disappointed.
As I shuffled my oracle deck to do this months reading, I could feel Her on my shoulder. The cards I pulled were so obvious and made sense. (I don't always understand them)
It's been a while since I've worked with a Vocal Goddess, so Thank you, Eurynome, for being so talkative.
The next morning, as I was getting ready for my day, I was swept back 25 years to one obscure day in my life.
They say that one of the signs that your magic is working is remembering long forgotten moments.
I think by remembering those moments, we have the opportunity to process the experiences and remove the emotional blocks that keep us from our desires.
We free ourselves from past and allow the magic to work.
As I was putting on make-up, I was remembering a time long ago when I was an angry rebellious teenager. It was back when I was dating my ex- husband. I was 16, he was 19.
~No my parents didn't care, they actually liked him; he had a job, a car, a good family - a huge step up from the questionable characters I had been seeing. ~
We usually hung out in the evenings and he always had me home by curfew..alright, almost always. Well one particular evening he picked me up when he got off work and I figured we'd be doing our usual hanging out with our friends after he stopped at home to change clothes.
When we got to his house, his family was getting ready to go to a holiday party that an older relatives was hosting and they expected us to go with.
I didn't want to go. I didn't really like 'family' things at the time. I had my heart set on hanging out with my friends. My ex wasn't willing to argue with his old man.
I remember being furious. I didn't listen to my folks, why the hell did I have to listen to his!
I told him to take me home first. He argued that he couldn't, he didn't know where he was going and had to follow his dad there.
I told him to drop me off at our friends in the neighborhood. I could get a ride home from him, or call my mom to come get me. He ignored me, turning the other way to follow his dad.
I told him to just stop, I'd get out and walk. He drove faster.
I was at a loss. I didn't know what to do.
This was long before teens had cell phones, so as long as I was home by curfew, my folks wouldn't suspect anything was wrong. I was so angry that I chain smoked the whole 20 minute drive to his great Aunt's house somewhere in the city in a neighborhood I wasn't familiar with.
When we got there I was torn between being a surly angry teenager and being kind to this old lady, whom I had never met before but was hugging me like she missed me. My own aunts didn't even do that.
In the end, my good manners won out. I let down my guard and enjoyed myself. I learned that day that I should be open to new experiences and new people because you never know.
I also saw for the first time, that my ex was stubborn about some things and that I should learn to be compliant because I won't win.
So why am I remembering this today?
Why did Eurynome trigger that little neuron that housed that old memory?
Because of the second lesson. Because during the 13 years that I had an active relationship with my ex (and probably even a few years after our divorce) compliance became a habit.
I agreed with him, not because I agreed but because I didn't want to argue; because I didn't want to loose.
I agreed with him because peace meant more to me than being right.
And sometimes that's honorable.
Sometimes that's absolutely the right choice.
However, Eurynome is telling me today, that every time I complied,
I was giving away my power.
I was making myself smaller, less important.
She is telling me today (and you) that now is the time to start being big again.
We have to believe it for ourselves before others will believe it about us.
She knows first hand what it means to be demoted, to be made smaller and less important.
It's a chronic condition in patriarchal societies. She wants more for us.
It's something we learn in a second hand way, from our parents and grandparents and It will continue until we say
"No. I am not complying with your agenda for me."
So what does that mean for me today?
I'm no longer dancing that dance with my ex, I haven't for a long time.
I never danced that dance with my husband, our relationship is based on mutual respect and admiration.
I think it goes back to my card reading; I pulled Sixth Chakra; Archangel Metatron:
Now is the time to focus on your personal vision
Eurynome is telling us to get clear about the life we want to create for ourselves.
Once we are clear about who we want to Be and how we want to Live, all the way down to the daily ins and outs, we will know when to be compliant and when not to.
We'll know when keeping the peace is beneficial to our long term goals and when we need to fight back and say "NO."
And once we're clear and we have our complete picture of what we want from life, She will be right there, dancing along side us as we create it!